Saturday, April 24, 2010

Waiting...

There hasn’t been a day that has gone by, within the past two years, that I haven’t thought of you. Thoughts of you have transformed themselves into urges to speak your name to anyone who would lend an ear to listen. I speak of how you fascinate me – your unique personality, colorful spirit, and unrelenting habit of being yourself, inspires me. Feelings of adoration for a being who holds so much value in my life, yet doesn’t seem to understand it. I wish you could grasp it, embrace it, and cherish it, as I do the thought of being with you…I love you.

Those three words hold so much meaning – mainly because I love you as my friend. This strong, influential entity within my life, who I couldn’t imagine being without…Damn, I need you. Your strength drives me, pushing me to become a better person – I unintentionally strive to meet your insurmountable expectations. When I think of you, it’s a beautiful smile that I see, a silly laugh that I hear, a voice of reason that soothes me. There’s no other way to explain it – you’re perfect.

You’re the epitome of perfection – every trace of every muscle, every thought that was never spoken, every smile that graces your face…I wouldn’t change you for the world. In a perfect world, we’d be together. Spending nights falling asleep in one another’s arms, dreaming of spending our lives together, and waking up to a familiar dream-like reality.

Sadly, the reality is, we’ll probably never have the chance to be together – yet I’m still willing to fight for you. An unrelenting battle trying to win you back…a constant struggle against your stubborn, bruised ego - it seems almost impossible.

But still, I’m willing to wait…to make the impossible, possible.

I just feel that there’s a reason that we gravitate towards one another, and all of this time spent apart, we’ve managed to remain relevant in one another’s lives. I’ve tried my best to pull away from you, but no matter how hard I try, my attempts fall short – you always find your way back into my heart. You are my weakness.

I’ve poured my heart into you, so you have me. I ‘m willing to drop everything for you, if you just tell me that you’re ready. You’re my best friend, the love of my life, and the only man I want. So whenever you’re ready, I’ll be here waiting, patiently…I love you.